Professor Sharon

I just figured out this morning one of the deep feelings I’m having about retirement from this amazing job of teaching I’ve had – at this place, 15 years, and in total, a career in the world of teaching for almost 40!   It’s the feeling of loss.

Like all humans, loss is an inevitable piece of our lives.  Our pets, our favorite shirts, our loved ones, and the list is pretty endless.  Something I learned a long time ago in a class studying the work of Elizabeth Kubla-Ross is that loss is interpreted by each person in their own way.

Maybe because of hearing someone in the 70s call themselves an orphan yesterday, this morning I woke up thinking about my parents.  I suppose I, too, am an orphan, but like loss, I’m not sure I define that word the same as others.  I am without living parents though, and last year when my mother died, I not only had her loss to deal with, but the final severing of very thin, barely perceptible cords that tied me to two of my siblings.  The rift is permanent now, and unlike the Grand Canyon, there is no way across that divide any longer.

No matter whether I understand or agree with it all, the feelings of loss are undeniable.   This morning I realize that amongst all the congratulations,  celebrations and excitement over what will come next in my life’s journey, I do have to admit to the loss of some of the work and the students I have been working with in this capacity for so long.    And, it’s okay.

Time to finish grading and celebrate!!  Just as I once had the opportunity to toast to my father’s memory on St. Patrick’s Day in an English Pub in Granada, Spain; one day I’ll toast to this amazing job I’ve had and all the people I’ve worked for and with during the journey!  I promise to make it somewhere amazing!