Today I felt a little of the reality of the time I will have to manage when I am retired. It’s been a hard start to my last semester; with unending snow storms, and school closings and all that effects in terms of supervising student teachers.
But, this morning I completed the first round of supervisions and realized that I’d have tomorrow and then Friday to work with, not counting THursday when I do need to teach four hours of classes. I have prep work to do, and some homework to grade, and some Moodle activities to set up; but those chores aren’t going to take two full days.
As I walked this afternoon with my hubby, during a break in his work, on a delightful “spring really is going to show up” kind of day, I realized what retirement might look like: time of my own to rearrange! Wow.
Memo: I have not phoned it in.
Today I went to the All College Meeting. It likely occurs at other colleges as well, but once a month, many of the faculty and staff gather for an hour at lunch in our lecture hall. The President fills us in on current economic news (as we are a state college), announcements are made, various things are discussed, and on occasion students and their work is highlighted. The latter is definitely my favorite.
I contributed to the discussion today; but found I was very reluctant. In some other meetings recently, I’d noticed that some of my colleagues were “rolling their eyes” when I spoke. I know that on occasion, in the hallways for example, a colleague will ask if I’ve phoned it in, or left in spirit already. I was very struck with the idea that somehow my leaving at the end of the semester for some folks means I don’t wish to be a fully contributing member of the community. I don’t care for the idea, yet, of course, there isn’t much I can do about it, but keep getting involved when I feel it’s important. Just weird.
“We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.”
? T.S. Eliot, Four Quartets
I spent the day enjoying the bulb shows at both Smith College and Mt. Holyoke College. The first packed like sardines, the second quiet, smaller and both delightful. A wonderful reminder that spring is arriving, especially appreciated after the harsh winter we have endured. Outside the greenhouses, much snow and ice still needs to melt. I spent the day appreciating the people, environment, and joy I have in my life.
Every day of my retirement is truly going to be like spring arriving!
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I work with the nicest of folks. On my way out of the building today, I saw one of the Psychology faculty and commented on how little I’d managed to see her this semester, even though she and I are only about six offices apart. It turns out she has quite a heavy teaching load – as everyone does in community college if you didn’t know that! – and has a new course with community involvement and training aspects to it that keep her quite busy.
Somewhere in there she managed to turn the conversation to me and how exciting it must be to think about and be about to be retired. She said that I’m a kind, firm, and comforting presence at the school and she would miss me.
I shall miss her, and several other of my colleagues a great deal as well. My hubby recently said to me that I am a people person and that I shall have to find ways to have people in my life every day – besides him and the nearby daughter and granddaughter of course!
I do have several ideas of what I want to spend my time with – I do want to count to others as well in this next third of my life. I think I’m about to have an adventure!
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